— Virginia Woolf (The Voyage Out)
Psycho Culture
December 13, 2010
Quote
"For some time she observed a great yellow butterfly, which was opening and closing its wings very slowly on a little flat stone. “What is it to be in love?” she demanded, after a long silence; each word as it came into being seemed to shove itself out into an unknown sea. Hypnotized by the wings of the butterfly, and awed by the discovery of a terrible possibility in life, she sat for some time longer. When the butterfly flew away, she rose, and within, her two books beneath her arm returned again, much as a soldier prepares for battle."
— Virginia Woolf (The Voyage Out)
— Virginia Woolf (The Voyage Out)
Bad Trip
Image via WikipediaJust a freak of the weak
Getting sleazy comes easy
When the beat is sick
And your about to peak
On heroin and mushrooms
Move out of my way I'm queasy
Get me to the bathroom quick
Wow! I am rushing too soon
The world is starting to fade
As the colors start to spin
Insane I am tripping daisies
Don't let anyone come in
Reality is too real a shade
My mind is actually shimmering
Stop looking at me crazy
I can see Never Never Land
Where's Peter Pan?
I am not sure if I can talk
My name is what
I'm sinking in quicksand
Don't think I can walk
Cops? So what?
A night in jail is all I will spend
No big deal
So get off my high
What's your deal
I think your paranoid
I've got the power
I'm ten feet tall
I will be high forever
Nothing else really matters
Think I will climb the water tower
Did I just fall
I
I never
I never thought
I'd splatter
I'm dead! I see my body splattered on the sidewalk. Hey! That guy just walked by and kicked my eyeball!!
December 11, 2010
Pinball Wizard
My soul is true and deep
Though you failed to see
What I carry inside and keep
Close to the nexus of what is me
Could explain why you don't care
You left a bruise
On the part of my soul I chose to bare
Only to you-- and there is no excuse
It was your choice to betray
What I held sacred and only for you
So it's not really okay
My soul is black and blue
My spirit a ghost
Through me you can see the stars
Though it's my demise you lust for most
Who knows-- since I am drowning my sorrows on Mars
(It's just a bar down the road--not too far)
Seeking any poison to cure
Or numb the screaming pain
Mainlining vodka (got any novocaine?) Gotta be sure
I can tap dance with madness straight through the vein
How else to save me from me?
Before you I was doing pretty good
Living in my own little world just being me
Once more I am totally misunderstood
If you hadn't been acting the fool
Selling out while losing your integrity
I use to think you were actually cool
You will never be truly free
If you continue to roll sleazy
Just another cheap dime store thug
Why you being stupid? Guess it comes easy
When your living low and spun out on drugs
It's actually tragic
Your so shallow and phony
Let your insecurities murder the magic
I don't think you will ever be
Again the guy I once met and knew
Long ago that was my friend
Looked me in the eye when he told me
Gave his word and shook my hand too
I guess that was a lie when you said we would be friends til the end?
I could never sell you out
Or in my heart wish you harm
Why did you even doubt
Let paranoia cause all this alarm
This has morphed from an external force
So strong I can't stop it-- so it feeds to divide
And keep us apart -- instead we collide, of course
Standing always on opposing sides
Caught in the circle jerk of life's crazy wild ride
That's why I am letting go -- I want to be done
Before I lose my soul like you.... I think
Your too damaged and it's not fun
Witnessing the depth you will sink
You've no moral compass inside, your character is not strong
This path will only end badly again
I thought I could believe in you, I was wrong
You were born in misery rancid with sin
I am only another in a long list of those you use
To exploit and discard, you don't care
After all you have nothing to lose
You took what you could knowing life's not fair
Time for me to get real stop singing the blues
Fucking a show to view in your hotel room
From the start it's been all lies and deception
It was wrong to think desperation would not lead to doom
Once you went from pipe to injection
Shooting poison straight to your infected mind
I should have realized you were already gone
From anywhere I could hope to find
You and rewind so that it was a new dawn
For you chose to let the ties that bind
You to the dark edges of your game in
Now nobody wins. Game over. The end.
Now your a tough guy with no one left to blame....
Just a pinball wizard, what a shame!
Though you failed to see
What I carry inside and keep
Close to the nexus of what is me
Could explain why you don't care
You left a bruise
On the part of my soul I chose to bare
Only to you-- and there is no excuse
It was your choice to betray
What I held sacred and only for you
So it's not really okay
My soul is black and blue
My spirit a ghost
Through me you can see the stars
Though it's my demise you lust for most
Who knows-- since I am drowning my sorrows on Mars
(It's just a bar down the road--not too far)
Seeking any poison to cure
Or numb the screaming pain
Mainlining vodka (got any novocaine?) Gotta be sure
I can tap dance with madness straight through the vein
How else to save me from me?
Before you I was doing pretty good
Living in my own little world just being me
Once more I am totally misunderstood
If you hadn't been acting the fool
Selling out while losing your integrity
I use to think you were actually cool
You will never be truly free
If you continue to roll sleazy
Just another cheap dime store thug
Why you being stupid? Guess it comes easy
When your living low and spun out on drugs
It's actually tragic
Your so shallow and phony
Let your insecurities murder the magic
I don't think you will ever be
Again the guy I once met and knew
Long ago that was my friend
Looked me in the eye when he told me
Gave his word and shook my hand too
I guess that was a lie when you said we would be friends til the end?
I could never sell you out
Or in my heart wish you harm
Why did you even doubt
Let paranoia cause all this alarm
This has morphed from an external force
So strong I can't stop it-- so it feeds to divide
And keep us apart -- instead we collide, of course
Standing always on opposing sides
Caught in the circle jerk of life's crazy wild ride
That's why I am letting go -- I want to be done
Before I lose my soul like you.... I think
Your too damaged and it's not fun
Witnessing the depth you will sink
You've no moral compass inside, your character is not strong
This path will only end badly again
I thought I could believe in you, I was wrong
You were born in misery rancid with sin
I am only another in a long list of those you use
To exploit and discard, you don't care
After all you have nothing to lose
You took what you could knowing life's not fair
Time for me to get real stop singing the blues
Fucking a show to view in your hotel room
From the start it's been all lies and deception
It was wrong to think desperation would not lead to doom
Once you went from pipe to injection
Shooting poison straight to your infected mind
I should have realized you were already gone
From anywhere I could hope to find
You and rewind so that it was a new dawn
For you chose to let the ties that bind
You to the dark edges of your game in
Now nobody wins.
Now your a tough guy with no one left to blame....
Just a pinball wizard, what a shame!
December 9, 2010
This
This
This isHer soul into which your looking
Scarred by the storms of her life
Which protected
What's inside
Cosmic stars
Glitter Horizons
Psychic Vampires
That wanted her mind
Tried to make her a victim
Clever defelection
Bloodlust lies
Clinging to something beautiful
Butterfly Blue Skies
Zodiac warrior floating
To an infinite orgasmic nexxus
Insanity the cruel razor slicing
Forever ripping her soul
Releasing the ghost
The ghost of her
Her ghost is seen
The ghost inside
The ghost that haunts her mind
Ghosts haunt her mind
I am
Your ninja bad ass
your ancient indian chief
your suicide kiss
your philosophy on stupidity
your orgasm in sleazy
smoking poetry
and wicked fucking
while peaking
your moral compass
death whispering
diamonds lust
shimmery glowing
thats all inside
her mind
Cocaine
Image via Wikipedia
December 6, 2010
The Story of Bad Billy....(ch.1)
Image via WikipediaSometimes I feel like the one of my species on the planet. I come from planet kick ass, and frankly this rock sucks. I get up this morning and I spit blood in the sink as I punch my skull, I feel angry.
When I was young, the use to call me the Sundance Kid. I use to run naked in the streets and the neighbors all thought there was something wrong with me. Our Florida winters weren't really all that cold, but I was getting ready for the future, I knew it was going to be a cold one.
I have loved and I have hated and I have hated what I have loved. I have known better and loved anyway I have known less and still I have loved. I will take love anyway any day, but love is not easy never kind, love just is. But my ex-wife is an exception to this rule. She tries to attack me intellectually, says I am primitive. Like a caveman, a big dumb animal. I'd like to argue with her-- but I know I have always felt the urge to grab her hair and double fuck her with a dildo shaped rock. When we were highschool sweethearts and I took her virginity after our prom, I wanted to reach through her and rip out her uterus like a trophy. These thoughts go through my head as I just grunt and hang up the phone. Honestly she is the reason I am all for legalized murder.
Mornings like this it usually smells like desperation and day old vomit. I am headed to the 7/11 for a newspaper and coffee. A mexican who looks like he just got off from every night job on the planet walks past me as I enter the store. The cashier does not realize she is perhaps my best friend. I talk to her every morning. She is fucked up, was raped by her stepdad since she was thirteen til she finally left home. I've walked with her after her shift on some mornings. She doesn't talk to most guys so I feel we are soul mates. I don't talk to most humans. She is all white and too thin with heroin eyes-- I think she is the most beautiful creature-- she probably comes from a planet of roses and rainbows. Her name is Molly.
Today Molly wants to come over. She has seen her stepdad outside of the 7/11 and she is crazy upset. So, we walk back to my place and I invite her in. She asks to use the bathroom, than comes out in skimpy panties and a t-shirt, her 7/11 uniform lays discarded on the bathroom floor. She wants to go lie down in the bedroom and for me to hold her. I take her into the bedroom where we have sex and than fall asleep, her too small little white body all curled up next to mine. When I wake up she is gone and I wonder if she was ever really here or just part of my dream.
~~~** SNIPERS**~~~
Image by unloveablesteve via FlickrIt's wrong. It's cruel.
Your bad. Your sad.
Your whole world is toxic and so are you.
November 27, 2010
Curse of the Damned
Image via WikipediaLoved nobody and misplaced their faith
Sold their souls so their integrity got slammed
A few were kinda dark and cool
But mostly they were crazy and kinda scary
If you thought they considered you a friend you were a fool
{and one was a serious closet fairy}
For them the world was a cruel shade of blue
Reckoning their sins came at a very high cost
More than this outlaw crew
Could stand to bare, being so cursed and lost
I am not sure if they ever came to realize
They were the reason for their own demise
But really they long ago lost hope
They were just too fucking broke and strung out on dope
Bad Billy peed on the wall
LaLa & Greg ran from the law
And really that is what started it all:
JT did wicked tattoos
Or sold poetry in smoke, you choose
Jason was just no damn good
Started a horrible war simply because he sucked
With his friend Stacy, who was totally misunderstood
He was a dog and thought he was fucked
Mark turned out to be the big theif
Jeff would always be kinda weird and shady
Stef remained in disbelief
To truth.... (and Carla was no lady
She was a sneak and a liar to boot)
Rachel told endless stupid lies
Joe had a job and thought he was cute
Sammy's brain was completely fried
Big Jamie went to jail and found God
Mike was a sociopath, a ZERO
Jimmy played leader to this squad
Jamie ended being no one's hero
Duane was a naked drinker so he had to fight like a pit bull
And Tom was just a serious bitch
Michelle at least was always cool
Steve broke both legs and once flipped his car in a ditch....
This was the crew that made a black pact
With Satan himself, to attend the Monsters Ball
A frightening and horrible fact
To all the world that wished only to see them fall
They sent this last wake up call
Life was hard enough they wished to say
So that is why they met that night and had a suicide ball
The music stopped that dark day
So, fuck you that's all
November 3, 2010
Hater
Your not my friend, you always bring me down
It’s a dead end, and your a fucking clown
You invade my life-
Twist everything around turn my world black
Quattuordecillion of thoughts
Your beginning to make me crack
Chemical imbalance my nerves taught
From the battles, bloodbath of war in zodiac
You threaten me scream your ugly names
While I am holding a knife are you insane
Your throat I wish to slit
Just stop your sick games
You think your a hero and I am a misfit
Want to watch as my knife cuts your skin
Though you made the first cut
What you’ve done to my soul the true sin
Whore, spread your legs, trailer trash, slut
The words that echo through my head
Crystalline fragments of pride
I know it won’t stop until one of us is dead
Set me up on your video camera
Now you threaten me with more lies
Radical concept but your the real hater
I only seek to defend myself and I despise
The role you cast me — trying to make me look bad
Where’s your honor, your integrity, your sad
Your hypocrisy knows no limit
Game over , I’m finished
Going to sit here and smoke a cigarette
Pick myself up again I’ve learned
Keep calm, stay cool, no need to fret
I can’t change a fool
It only adds more fuel
To your insanity
So, fuck it, I will die young and look pretty
It’s a dead end, and your a fucking clown
You invade my life-
Twist everything around turn my world black
Quattuordecillion of thoughts
Your beginning to make me crack
Chemical imbalance my nerves taught
From the battles, bloodbath of war in zodiac
You threaten me scream your ugly names
While I am holding a knife are you insane
Your throat I wish to slit
Just stop your sick games
You think your a hero and I am a misfit
Want to watch as my knife cuts your skin
Though you made the first cut
What you’ve done to my soul the true sin
Whore, spread your legs, trailer trash, slut
The words that echo through my head
Crystalline fragments of pride
I know it won’t stop until one of us is dead
Set me up on your video camera
Now you threaten me with more lies
Radical concept but your the real hater
I only seek to defend myself and I despise
The role you cast me — trying to make me look bad
Where’s your honor, your integrity, your sad
Your hypocrisy knows no limit
Game over , I’m finished
Going to sit here and smoke a cigarette
Pick myself up again I’ve learned
Keep calm, stay cool, no need to fret
I can’t change a fool
It only adds more fuel
To your insanity
So, fuck it, I will die young and look pretty
Things Eveeryone Should Know
Things Everyone needs to Know...
I honestly don't understand how one ca go through life without knowing important facts like these!!
1) A crocodile cannot stick it's tongue out
2) Starfish do not have brains
3)Butterflies taste with their feet
4)Cats urine glows under a black light
5) On average people fear spiders more than they do death
6)The strongest muscle in the body is the TONGUE
7)The average human eats eight spiders in their lifetime at night
8) Polar bears are left handed
9)Peanuts are one of the ingredients of dynomite
10)A dragonfly has a lifespan of 24 hours
11) A goldfish has a memory span of three seconds
12) Most lipstick contains fish scales
13) Human thigh bones are stronger than concrete
14)The average person has over 1460 dreams a year
15)There are over one million animal species on earth
16)One in four Americans has appeared on Television
17) A cockroach can live several weeks with it's head cutoff-- it dies from starvation
18) Dolphins sleep with one eye open
19)In ten minutes a hurricane releases more energy than all the nuclear weapons combined
20) On average, a 100 people choke on ballpoint pens a year
21) The average person falls asleep in seven minutes
22) If you keep a goldfish in a dark room eventually it will turn white
23)One person in two billion will live to be older than 116
24) A whale's penis is called a dork
I honestly don't understand how one ca go through life without knowing important facts like these!!
1) A crocodile cannot stick it's tongue out
2) Starfish do not have brains
3)Butterflies taste with their feet
4)Cats urine glows under a black light
5) On average people fear spiders more than they do death
6)The strongest muscle in the body is the TONGUE
7)The average human eats eight spiders in their lifetime at night
8) Polar bears are left handed
9)Peanuts are one of the ingredients of dynomite
10)A dragonfly has a lifespan of 24 hours
11) A goldfish has a memory span of three seconds
12) Most lipstick contains fish scales
13) Human thigh bones are stronger than concrete
14)The average person has over 1460 dreams a year
15)There are over one million animal species on earth
16)One in four Americans has appeared on Television
17) A cockroach can live several weeks with it's head cutoff-- it dies from starvation
18) Dolphins sleep with one eye open
19)In ten minutes a hurricane releases more energy than all the nuclear weapons combined
20) On average, a 100 people choke on ballpoint pens a year
21) The average person falls asleep in seven minutes
22) If you keep a goldfish in a dark room eventually it will turn white
23)One person in two billion will live to be older than 116
24) A whale's penis is called a dork
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