Though you failed to see
What I carry inside and keep
Close to the nexus of what is me
Could explain why you don't care
You left a bruise
On the part of my soul I chose to bare
Only to you-- and there is no excuse
It was your choice to betray
What I held sacred and only for you
So it's not really okay
My soul is black and blue
My spirit a ghost
Through me you can see the stars
Though it's my demise you lust for most
Who knows-- since I am drowning my sorrows on Mars
(It's just a bar down the road--not too far)
Seeking any poison to cure
Or numb the screaming pain
Mainlining vodka (got any novocaine?) Gotta be sure
I can tap dance with madness straight through the vein
How else to save me from me?
Before you I was doing pretty good
Living in my own little world just being me
Once more I am totally misunderstood
If you hadn't been acting the fool
Selling out while losing your integrity
I use to think you were actually cool
You will never be truly free
If you continue to roll sleazy
Just another cheap dime store thug
Why you being stupid? Guess it comes easy
When your living low and spun out on drugs
It's actually tragic
Your so shallow and phony
Let your insecurities murder the magic
I don't think you will ever be
Again the guy I once met and knew
Long ago that was my friend
Looked me in the eye when he told me
Gave his word and shook my hand too
I guess that was a lie when you said we would be friends til the end?
I could never sell you out
Or in my heart wish you harm
Why did you even doubt
Let paranoia cause all this alarm
This has morphed from an external force
So strong I can't stop it-- so it feeds to divide
And keep us apart -- instead we collide, of course
Standing always on opposing sides
Caught in the circle jerk of life's crazy wild ride
That's why I am letting go -- I want to be done
Before I lose my soul like you.... I think
Your too damaged and it's not fun
Witnessing the depth you will sink
You've no moral compass inside, your character is not strong
This path will only end badly again
I thought I could believe in you, I was wrong
You were born in misery rancid with sin
I am only another in a long list of those you use
To exploit and discard, you don't care
After all you have nothing to lose
You took what you could knowing life's not fair
Time for me to get real stop singing the blues
Fucking a show to view in your hotel room
From the start it's been all lies and deception
It was wrong to think desperation would not lead to doom
Once you went from pipe to injection
Shooting poison straight to your infected mind
I should have realized you were already gone
From anywhere I could hope to find
You and rewind so that it was a new dawn
For you chose to let the ties that bind
You to the dark edges of your game in
Now nobody wins.
Now your a tough guy with no one left to blame....
Just a pinball wizard, what a shame!
Wow, what a payoff! I hope it relieved you.
ReplyDeleteNow I truly believe you finally got it?To understand what Life is
ReplyDeleteAll about.Friends and People come an go,but those who still have
The faith in You will never Die! They may turn their back on you,may
Even lie to You.But in the end it not that you try to Help them?in fact they trying to help you be a stronger Person,in this Cruel World we live in.Even if you are blind to the people that do make you stronger.Just remember this life go on,you
maybe at crossroad that looks bink! Those people that you thing were cruel to
You,are always there for you.Just turn around an reach out.Keep the Faith in your writed
It did relieve me Ms. Star.... and Mike I think about much. I write to survive. Thank-you for taking time to read and comment.
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